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I pretty much was on the verge of crying from a children’s show.



Don’t even know why I was watching it…I was multi-tasking while watching the cartoon retro channel, and it started with He-man, TMNT, Transformers, and Gi-Joe, and then a children’s show came on, not kids, a childrens show. I’m not releasing the title because it’s too damn embarrassing, but my God, why did they make it so sad? The ending…goodness. He was actually listing off  syptoms of depression and it never got solved. I’ll be sad all night.
seriously.

        All this Kony stuff is really making me upset…I mean I really want to believe in this stuff, I really want to believe that people were trying to make a difference, and for once stop all the bullshit in this world, but the more I look around, the more I realize more room for this to be just another heart breaking hoax. Weather it be politicians trying to get public support to do something wrong, or just some really smart money hungry people. I’m not saying I totally believe it’s fake…but there is a possibility it is. 
          I just want to believe otherwise, and I don’t want to hear your stupid insults directed at me for believing that someone out there is actually trying to fix problems in this mess we live in. Yeah I want my kids to grow up in a world they can be proud of, and I want to be able to help make a difference. I hate how trusting people makes you naive and stupid in this world today. Is it so wrong to want to give money to a homeless person, and imagine that they have a jar in their cardboard box labeled “house fund” and not “hooch”? 
         When I was a kid, I wanted to become insanely rich, and give it all to Africa and other poor countries and solve all of the world’s problems. I know now that money will not solve everything, I know that violence and war are all around the world, and we need to stop that before everyone can have enough to eat, but more than anything I just wish it was as easy as that. I really want to hear people speak without having to think of ulterior motives, because despite all the shit that goes on everywhere, all the people taking advantage of eachother’s generosity and love, I still want to be able to have faith in the human race. If that makes me stupid…than I’m a God damn idiot and I’m proud of it.

So today I saw a male that was so aesthetically pleasing, I blushed just looking at him.
He was a paramedic at the hospital and he had to check my temperature three times because I was so damn hot. Just kidding, I was actually too cold but he still had to check it thrice, with this weird thing on my forehead that kind of feels like a brain washing/reading tool. I told him this. I also told him about my embarrassing morning where I looked like a messy fool in front of the class and they all laughed. It was a funny story, but I could have pretended I was smooth to the hot paramedic worker. I might have also told him about my lightsaber key chain. I was wearing my bazinga shirt with a long sleeve underneath…just like how Sheldon wears it. Oh goodness I was a hot cold nerdy mess, and he can conclude this after 10 minutes of taking my vitals. Then he found out I was In grade 12 and asked me what I wanted to do with my life, I thought that was awesome…but I couldn’t look him in the eyes while I talked. People thought it was cute how I acted…I find it’s quite sad and hopeless. Awe well, it was eye candy for a while. Just thought I’d share this with you…because hey, I’m pretty sure this is the point of a blog.